I went to mom and told her about the medicines, the psychologist, the childhood trauma, my fears, my daydreaming. That was when something within me woke up. I felt feverish unusually cold from within. The next day morning was the worst I’ve seen of myself. I got really desperate and bought myself the medicines. The psychologist prescribed medicines for me and she said it would help me control my mind, and concentrate on studies and also help me develop my confidence back. I got some tests done and the results showed I was in depression. I went to a psychologist without informing my parents, and poured my heart out. When I turned 22, during my study leave, preparing for my Final CA exams (one of the toughest courses in India), I decided enough was enough. I thought time would heal everything and no one needs to know. Not even the childhood trauma or my state of mind. Until recently I didn’t even know it had a name and that other people had it.
All the things I mentioned above were a part of me and I accepted my life that way. I grew up with it and my mind and my life got more and more addicted and habituated with it. It happened to me at a very young age and it was due to a childhood trauma. Just in your mind and refuse to indulge in your normal daily activities. It may sound funny because day dreaming is normal, but it’s not when you start creating your own world It results in disruption of normal life, low self-esteem, lack of self-confidence, social anxiety and lot more things. Maladaptive Daydreaming is a condition where a person starts day dreaming excessively.
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